A couple of years back I used to be such an innocent, somewhat lively soul who was devoid of the many vices that are a part of me today. Taking 2010 into account, the year was mad. I got to see Lamb of God play live In Bangalore, my First year of Degree College in Wilson’s. The new friends I made, the heartbreaks and the changes I underwent. It was a good learning experience. The thing about changes that most people do not get is that it is continuous, inevitable and unstoppable. Feelings, emotions and anxieties to some extent keep changing continuously. Like the fear of a cockroach is different from the time you were 5yrs of age and your reaction on seeing one now would be totally different – you’d smash the little runt with your footwear. Also 2010 make’s an unforgettable year because it was the year when I first played on stage.
The current year wasn’t very exciting but it was a year which involved a lot of thinking and the most amounts of changes I have ever undergone. My thought patterns changed drastically. I was aware of how mean and insensitive I sounded when I said certain things (especially to the fat folks and the blacks) but I never changed that. Somehow being mean and insensitive was awesome. So I kept it as a part of me. I definitely used a lot of people this year to meet the ends I required. It wasn’t as harsh as it sounds. I did an internship with Siemens which was a highlight of this year. The most most beautiful three months I ever had. It was that experience that really helped me grow and improve.
This was the year I was questioned a lot on many grounds. I figured there may have been something wrong with me. It was only later that I realized that the only thing I had done wrong was letting people to get me to doubt myself. No one has the right to make you doubt your individuality and personality or rather make you feel like a pile of garbage that lies next to a toxic waste plant. It is a part of you, the feelings, the emotions they define you and when people question that, they are questioning your very existence, the reason you breathe, the things you believe in and I would like to ask these people, is it fair and who gave you the right to point fingers?
So the only things that I kept constant and didn’t ever change were my ideals and principles that I formed along the way and held on to through everything I faced. It is something that none of us should ever change as they define us in the long run. It is on the basis of these personal codes of conduct that individuals are often judged or measured. The more loosely you handle them, the more your personality deteriorates or rather changes in a different angle. So as 2012 creeps in, which I hopefully wish will be the end of this putrid and pathetic planet. More or less, till that day arrives I look forward to a lot of fun, excitement, surprises, growth and sex! Have a good year ahead you ass-bandits!
The current year wasn’t very exciting but it was a year which involved a lot of thinking and the most amounts of changes I have ever undergone. My thought patterns changed drastically. I was aware of how mean and insensitive I sounded when I said certain things (especially to the fat folks and the blacks) but I never changed that. Somehow being mean and insensitive was awesome. So I kept it as a part of me. I definitely used a lot of people this year to meet the ends I required. It wasn’t as harsh as it sounds. I did an internship with Siemens which was a highlight of this year. The most most beautiful three months I ever had. It was that experience that really helped me grow and improve.
This was the year I was questioned a lot on many grounds. I figured there may have been something wrong with me. It was only later that I realized that the only thing I had done wrong was letting people to get me to doubt myself. No one has the right to make you doubt your individuality and personality or rather make you feel like a pile of garbage that lies next to a toxic waste plant. It is a part of you, the feelings, the emotions they define you and when people question that, they are questioning your very existence, the reason you breathe, the things you believe in and I would like to ask these people, is it fair and who gave you the right to point fingers?
So the only things that I kept constant and didn’t ever change were my ideals and principles that I formed along the way and held on to through everything I faced. It is something that none of us should ever change as they define us in the long run. It is on the basis of these personal codes of conduct that individuals are often judged or measured. The more loosely you handle them, the more your personality deteriorates or rather changes in a different angle. So as 2012 creeps in, which I hopefully wish will be the end of this putrid and pathetic planet. More or less, till that day arrives I look forward to a lot of fun, excitement, surprises, growth and sex! Have a good year ahead you ass-bandits!
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