A place in my dreams

Look at our misguided lives revolving around weed, sex, alcohol and vanity. Our voices have the utterance of these words in every reference we make. What a waste of time. It's all gotten so monotonous and vague. It doesn't make sense to me at all. It doesn't make sense as to why and how did we fall this low. Now that my vision is paired I see it all so clearly. Everything I did or said was so pointless. The lives that people follow are so pointless. I was so wrong to walk the same path as others. I forgot all about my dream, my destiny, my vision and everything I wish to achieve. They cannot be attained though, not in my current state of mind but as time passes by slowly, I wish to break free from all these chains that pull me down and stand where I stood before - between the positive and the negative. A place where I didn't care. A place where conscience, guilt, emotions and feelings didn't exist. The place where everything was the way I wanted to see it. A serene, divine state of mind where I was free from bondage. I fell way too low to ever go back there.